Book Review: Finding Audrey – Sophie Kinsella

304 pages
Published: May 2016
Publisher: Ember
Genre: Teenlit, Mental Health, Romance

Audrey wears dark glasses all the time, even in the house. She almost never goes out, doesn’t talk to new people, and finds making eye contact to be nearly impossible.
But then one day she meets Linus. Linus is her brother’s friend and a sensitive spirit with whom she can talk through her fears. He makes her laugh and doesn’t leave her feeling like she’s being judged. As their friendship deepens, Audrey’s recovery gains momentum, and she and Linus begin to develop feelings for each other. But how can they have a future together when Audrey hasn’t dealt with her past? And how could anyone ever love her once they’ve seen her at her worst?

My Thought:
There was something wrong with Audrey. She always wore sunglasses, even when she was home. She didn’t like to socialize because people scared her. She was even scared to have eye contact with her family members, such as her parents and Frank, the oldest child of the family. The only person whose most comfortable to communicate with was her younger brother, Felix.

Audrey’s condition was intriguing. One day, Frank’s friend, Linus, came and his sudden appearance freaked her out. It was like she met a ghost in the middle of the day. It turned out that she had a trauma and suffered from social anxiety disorder. Audrey had been visiting the therapist for months since “the incident” and she hadn’t recovered yet. Thus, in order to improve the condition, Dr. Sarah, her therapist, finally gave her some tasks. It started from creating documentary videos to encourage herself going outside and meeting people.

Fortunately, although Linus was shocked by Audrey’s reaction, he was very considerate and understood her. He started slowly approaching her and helped Audrey going along with the therapeutic tasks, which of course with some little improvisation. The results was satisfying. On the other hand, it was also dangerous because Audrey thought she had fully recovered while she was actually still fragile.

Reading “Finding Audrey” was the journey of looking for the reason why Audrey experienced this trauma as well as the journey to heal herself. In the story plot there were some pieces of Audrey’s past, but at the same time they were blur to me. Audrey obviously experienced bullying at school, but what was it exactly? Did she badly injured? Did she phisically harmed, too? What happened after the incident? This book left me some questions, but there was no answer.

Nevertheless, I like the humour of the story, the typical of Shopie Kinsella. I also love the interaction between Audrey and Linus. Felix was also an additional entertainment in the story with his funny remarks. However, there were also some parts which irritated me as well when it involved Anne, the mother.

Her mother was very annoying. She was too dramatic and paranoid. The worst, she was very bossy and I agree with Audrey’s description of her, which she gave her mother double titles of bossiness. It was pictured during Anne’s interaction with Frank and her husband. I would have left home forever If I were her kid. However, her transformation was nice at the end and you might see that Anne had sacrificed much for her family, too.

I also learned that it’s OK to experience up and down during the mental disorder recovery. As someone who experienced a traumatic accident, I understood Audrey’s fears. I have also been as frustrated as her at the thought of being trapped in the situation forever. Finishing this story made me realize that It’s OK if you are still scared and making no progress at the moment. It’s totally fine if one day you feel that you’ve overcome your nightmare, but the next moment it’s re-chasing after you. And when you are tired, it’s ok to make a stop. As long as you are moving forward, as long as you are trying, then eventually you’ll see the significant progress you have made.

As a closing, I’m going to share some meaningful quotes during the reading:

It won’t be forever. You’ll be in the dark for as long as it takes and then you’ll come out.

No one said getting better would be a straightforward journey. Remember our graph? You’ll go up and you’ll fo down. But your progress will be in the right direction. It is in the right direction. You’ve come along way

You don’t need to know every something in the world, Audrey


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